happy day

Today is a happy day for a lot of reasons! First of all, my lovely friend Lindsey is in town and she asked me to hang out not once but twice! We enjoyed 1/2 Martini's at Cafe Felix last night and we are meeting up again this evening for dinner at the Red Hawk with Emily Junck! I have to say that I really love that Lindsey and I have maintained a friendship since high school because she is such a sweet girl. She is a great listener and she its obvious that she really cares about our friendship and does everything she can to hang out with me when she's in town. So thanks Lindsey for being such a great friend. Another happy thing is that Cyrus is home from his canoe/camping trip in the wilderness of Northern MN and is once again reachable by phone, email , video chat, and other forms of technology! I got to talk to him on video chat today and he is real scruffy! : ) Also- I had ballet today and I felt like I actually looked like a ballerina for the first time! I was dancing with really good technique and I was connecting with the music! It was so much fun! My teacher still had tons of "constructive criticism" but I really am starting to see a change in my posture and articulation of my body! Lastly, today is just a beautiful fall day! The sun is out and the leaves are turning and its not freezing cold. I don't have too much more to say right now other than that I am in an excellent mood. I do want to put a plug out there for commenting on my blog. If you read my blog, I want to know about it!! Also- if you haven't joined the fan club on facebook please do that soon! I may write a little more later tonight. Have a happy fall afternoon everyone!

my wishful weekend

its almost midnight and i am officially sad. I have tried extremely hard to have fun times and keep myself busy but the reality is that I just don't enjoy my life nearly as much when I am not with Cyrus. Everytime I start doing something that should be fun I think to myself, this would be so much better if I was doing it with Cryus. Example of that this weekend were going to a swim meet at UM, going out to dinner, going dancing, going to a ballroom dance lesson, making dinner, drinking wine, going to a dance concert, and going to see a movie. All of these things should be fun, and they are fun to a degree but in the back of my head all the time is "Damnit I wish I were doing this with Cyrus". And then there's the stupid everyday things that I am used to doing with Cyrus that I long to do with him again like eating breakfast or coming home after a long day and just being together. The only thing that makes me truly happy is to fantasize about those times and hope they come soon! Anyway- on a happier note here are some funny things that happened this weekend: 1) my mom got up in the middle of dinner to get clothes from the dryer, my dad and I were slightly annoyed that she just left the table (she does this often) so I decided to put her plate away, she came back to the table to find no more food for her! 2) i went to see "Across the Universe" for the second time (and I hope to see it at least one more time in the theatres because it is SOOO good) and there was a couple in front of us that was chewing Nestle Crunch Bite-Sized Snacks so loud that I thought they were eating teeth! 3) i walked from my house to the Power Center to see the Hubbard Street Dance Company and I coined a term called "Block and talk" where I went through my phone book and called one person per block, regardless of whether they picked up or not (which no one did) I would spend one block on each persons voice mail (or talking in person) or until their machine cut me off. 4) my dad bought Vegan friendly wine, enough said. Thats all I got for you guys for the weekend. Sorry its a short one. Hope every one had a good weekend! PS- what is everyone doing for Halloween? I have no plans or costume and its making me sad!!! Shoot me an email!

my first drunk post

hello everyone! so now i am intending to complete my first drunken post. i just got home from dinner with my parents where I comsumed quite a bit of wine because it was the first time I didn't have to drive! It was great to get some good food and drinks and chit chat with my parents. They are so much more bearable when they are drunk! So mom wants to write a piece....

Actually, it is much easier to deal with my ,as mMYmother would say, sainted daughter, if I am drunk. Later, PT

Yeah sorry about that guys! Anyways-- here is the dilemma...its 9:15pm and I am supossed to meet this kid at a bar in 15 minutes to go dancing. I don't really wanna go but I feel really bad if I stand him up! He is a nice guy but somehow I feel like its a date and I dpn't want to go if its a date. I am so in love with Cyrus and I would never want to jeapordize that! I know that I need to go out dancing to improve my dancing but this kid is just weird! He said he is going to the Navy in a week..wtf right??? Anyway- I gotta go I'll write ya'll more later!

cherry pod-tart day

So this is blog number two and suprise suprise I am writing it late at night. I have been on the most fucked up schedule recently and I can't seem to break it! I wake up at 10am every morning, I do stuff all day, and then it gets to be 12 or 1 at night and I'm still not tired!!! Usually by 2am I decide to turn out the light and try to go to sleep but I usually end up lying awake for at least another thirty minutes! It's so annoying because no one else is awake and it just adds to my lonelines. If I could just fall asleep at a reasonable hour then things would be so much better. I think part of the problem is that I do not eat dinner until after dance, which usually ends up being around 9 or 10. But seriously how can you do 3 or 4 hours and not be hungry afterwards? I eat at 10:30AM and again sometime around 2 and again sometime around 5 and then again sometime around 9. This isn't too wacky except that all the meals are late. Then again, last Saturday I got up early and finished all eating activities before 9pm and I still was not ready to sleep until 1am! Does anyone have any advice? Anyway- that was a total tangent, I meant to talk about my day. Wednesday mornings are relax morning because my mom is at work (she only works 2 days a week so when she does it feels amazing to have the house to myself). I always have a huge leisurly breakfast and watch TV because I can't watch it when she's home. Today I had Cherry Pop-Tarts and a banana. I chilled out on the couch and watched "Whose Wedding Is It Anyway" on the Style network which used to be a fun show to watch but now I'm sick of it. Plus- I'm not getting married anytime soon so whats the point? Next I did some research about New York which lead to no good results because I am a terrible researcher. Then I decided to record a podcast workout. I did that all afternoon because getting the camera angle just right was real hard this time! Unfortunately, there is not enough space on my computer to import the movie so I have to go buy an external hard drive! Any suggestions? Anyway- I finished up recording and tried to do the dishes before I left for dance but I ran out of time. I went to ballet and lyrical jazz and then I came home and practice dancing for a little over an hour. It was 10:30 and I decided to make some dinner. I had a lovely salad, a protein bar, some almonds, and a strawberry juice bar. Then it hit me that I had many more hours during which I would have no one to talk to. My baby is on a long weekend camping/canoeing excursion with his dad and is out of cell range until next Monday! : ( My mom is glued to the tele whenever she's not at work...so its just me and my little old computer. Luckily enough I did get to talk to Lara on the phone and online today and that was fun even though she's not feeling well and we haven't been able to carve pumpkins together like we had been planning. I also briefly talked to my mom for awhile about random stuff which was fun. That pretty much sums up my day. Hope you guys had a more eventful day than I did! PS- notice the picture---this is what I look like when I am bored and lonely at night and start taking photos of myself trying to look sad and desperate.